Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. (Luke 12:6-7)
Last
night was a tough night. There are some circumstances that aren’t as I want
them to be, or that they aren’t looking like they’re going to be what I want
them to be. That led to spiritual warfare. I didn’t like how I was handling it.
Where was my faith? Where was my love? All I could really find was impatience,
greed, and shame because I couldn’t make the reflection in the metaphorical
mirror a pretty one. In a word, I was disgusted with myself. It didn’t help
that I couldn’t fall asleep. And then I come to the Bible passage suggested by
Biblegateway.com for today and find “Many Sparrows.” Thank You, Father.
I’m
reminded of a poem I wrote years ago:
My
Five Smooth Stones
My five smooth stones, they missed
their mark today.
The giant laughed and went his
scornful way.
and I, left dazed and bloody on the
field,
can only say that I refused to
yield,
for all the good that did, I slowed
him not
No vict’ry song; it’s better off
forgot
Your five smooth stones, they missed
their mark today
But mine flew straight, they did not
go astray.
Your ego’s wound will let your soul
be healed,
and from the worst my mercy did you
shield.
The battle won was not the one you
thought
But standing there you did not do
for naught.
Allyn Ransom
(inspired
by I Samuel 17:40)
There
are days and, perhaps more often, nights like this. We have our own ideas of
what victory means in our circumstances, and when we don’t get the victory we
want, we may think we lost. But God’s goal may be different. And one of the things we need to pound into our hearts is that God values us above many sparrows, even if we fail.
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