Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed
within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my
God. My soul is downcast within me; therefore I will remember you from the land
of the Jordan, the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.
(Psalm 42:5-6)
This
passage should be stenciled on my walls, on my dashboard and anywhere else it
will fit. It's the type of self-talk I need on a daily basis. Not "You can
do it! You're great! You're a winner!" No. I need to ask myself what I'm
really disturbed about when I'm disturbed, and that is almost daily. Why is my
soul downcast? What's actually wrong? Some of you have been treated to my
therapeutic public "Whiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine." It actually helps. The
reason behind it is ambivalent anxiety, amorphous angst, diaphanous
depression... all as substantial as smoke but it's just as obscuring of the
vision and its stink seeps into every pore and fiber of life. There's nothing
really wrong. It's not biological because it goes away once I'm distracted from
my lament.
Once
I've asked "why?" and discovered that once again there is no reason,
that's when I need to tell myself, "put your hope in God, for I will yet
praise him, my Savior and my God."
That's when I need to remind myself of the Promised Land. That's when I need to
change my self-talk from "If only" to "Whatever"...
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by
prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the
peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and
your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is
noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is
admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever
you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into
practice. And the God of peace will be with you. (Philippians 4:6-9)
Comments
Post a Comment