Each Day

             Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:34)

 

          Yes, I’ve been here before, and quite recently. We’re back to “Hurry up! Not yet!” The garden needs to be cleaned and set up, but not yet. I’ve started my job, but we’re not busy enough for me to have many hours. I seem to have hit a roadblock in my story. Some may suggest that this is time I can take for myself, but what does that mean? If it means that I can do what I want to, the problem is that what I want to do is what I can’t do yet. I’m trying to build in some good habits, but it’s a time of year when I don’t have a clear direction of things that need to be done.

          And that makes it an excellent faith-building time. Now is not about all the things I need to do in the future but can’t do now.  Now is about looking at my to-do list for today and doing it, not about worrying whether I should do this or that in the next six months to a year.

          This isn’t to say that I shouldn’t be willing to take steps or make decisions about six months from now, but – in purely practical terms, if I spend all day worrying about what to do six months from now, I won’t get today’s jobs done. So I’m trying to get my mind focused on today, on what I can do now rather than on what I should do next week, next month, or in the fall.

          And that’s a challenge because a part of me speaks up very clearly about the notion that I am not doing what I should be doing. I “should” be approaching my future more aggressively, following worldly wisdom – more in a way that requires less faith and more anxiety.

          It comes down to whether I will allow God to lead me and work things out for my good or am I going to worry. My answer is that today is today, and some things need to be done in it, and God is God, and I can trust Him or not.