For this reason Christ is the mediator of a new covenant, that those who are called may receive the promised eternal inheritance—now that he has died as a ransom to set them free from the sins committed under the first covenant. (Hebrews 9:15)
This
is something I’d really rather not think about but here it is and it’s
important. I was reading in Bold Love about seeking revenge. The author wrote of seeking justice when a
supposed Christian does something sinful, harmful, and/or horrific, like
sexually abusing a daughter. And the
thought that came to mind was of God asking if Jesus’ death was sufficient
payment to me for the sin committed against me.
I
have no specific longing for revenge, vengeance, or justice. I’m sure there are
some lurking somewhere in my heart, but this wasn’t a response to one. It was
more a question of principle. Jesus’ death was sufficient payment for to God
for our sins. That’s the standard Sunday
School answer, and it’s a good answer.
But
when it comes to sins committed against me, what punishment do I think
sufficient? Really. Is it a capital crime against me? Do I want the person to
rot in hell? Would I be satisfied with a billion dollars? A million? A
thousand? A hundred? A penny? Do I want to humiliate the person? Have them
grovel in the dirt begging my forgiveness? Thinking over some of the things
that have hurt me, two of the biggest things I seem to want are 1) for them to
stop – and then start treating me as a valued person (repentance), and 2) for
them to acknowledge and agree that it was wrong. (confession.) But what if the sin committed against me were
worse? Would that be sufficient for rape? For crippling me in some way? I don’t
know, but the ultimate payment we could ask is for capital punishment. They
should die for what they did – preferably a painful death that leads to an
eternity of punishment.
And
the question God asked me tonight is, “Are you willing to accept Jesus’ death
on the cross as that payment?”
And
one of my answers is, “No, because the
person who sinned against me hasn’t acknowledged his/her sin against me.”
Another is, “No, because I want the person who sinned against me to die a
thousand times.” For X? X is so minor. Hardly a capital crime. A court of law
might laugh the matter off, or assign 1 hour of community service, but I want
more. But if God considered it sufficient payment, what does it say of me to
want greater? What greater could there be? And if I am angry because Jesus
paying the price means that the sinner didn’t have to, what does that say of
me?
Good point and forgiveness is the answer but a hard thing to do when we are hurt. I know a woman who held unto unforgiveness for forty some years and her head layed on her . Unforgiveness can hurt us if we don't forgive!shoulder just like someone had taken it off and placed it there. She finally forgave the man that had hurt her.
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