I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, (Ephesians 3:16)
My inner being is being a
fretful baby at the moment. I’m all caught up in decisions I’m making that deal
with a future that isn’t today. In other words, as I’ve stated before, I’m
dealing with the HU!NY! Syndrome, properly known as “Hurry Up! Not Yet!” It
seems as if I can’t live in the present, but either struggle to escape from the
past or to prepare for the future. Even as I tell myself, “Just one step” or “focus
on today,” I’m kicking myself over failures in the past or whining about
whatever I’m going to do months from now. And while I’m busy doing something, I
can close the door to that messy room. But as soon as I don’t have something else
to focus on, it’s like the monster under the bed or in the closet. It sneaks
out of that room and pounces.
As usual, I’m not looking
for pity. I’m describing in case you can relate - in case you happen to be struggling
with something similar. Today’s verse speaks about how I feel. It’s as if
something in my inner being is weak or even broken, which adds humiliation to
the chaos. But then there’s today’s verse. We’re to be strengthened with power
through His Spirit in the inner being. And there’s the book of Joshua and
fighting for our promised land-again in our inner being. It’s not a case often
seconds of battle and we’ve won it all. In this case, it’s more like trudging
around Jericho (a major stronghold in the area) for seven days. The battle is
one of power, not speed. So, it’s time to keep on keeping on, and maybe of
taking just one (more) step- however many times it’s needed.
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