Not Enough

 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:11-13)

     Yesterday, I found myself thinking about my safety preparedness for my word of the day. I'm not prepared enough. I don't have enough supplies on hand. I am not competent enough. Closely related to the issue of safety is the idea of being self-sufficient. I plant gardens every year, and this year especially I have a better crop of weeds than anything else. I'm not self-sufficient enough. As I prepare to give a talk about being a nobody and making a difference, I am convinced I'm not prepared enough, educated enough, or prepared enough to take on the leadership role that I seem to be taking. I consider doing this or that, and more often than not, the reality is that I'm not rich enough, talented enough, strong enough, disciplined enough, faithful enough, courageous enough or competent enough. But, part of my mind tells me, I am more than arrogant enough to step forward anyway.

            Except, at least I hope except, it is not arrogance. Sometimes, moving forward is not arrogance, it is obedience. This past Sunday, I watched a video of a sermon by Andy Stanley that talked about giving what we have to Christ, receiving it back from Him and doing what we know what to do, and trusting Him for the outcome. I will learn to be content with that.