Lord, I have heard of your fame; I stand in awe of your deeds, Lord. Repeat them in our day, in our time make them known; in wrath remember mercy. (Habakkuk 3:2)
God and I are in very different
time-streams. Actually, He’s not in a time-stream, and I am. That’s the
problem. When I cry out to God to help or say something, as Habakkuk did in
today’s verse, I’m looking for an answer in the next thirty seconds, and it
would help if there was something dramatic or attention-grabbing about it, so I
notice.
On the other hand, in His wisdom, God
provided lots of answers two thousand years ago, and may provide an answer six
months or two years down the line, when I’ve forgotten the question, but
actually need the answer. And, if the truth is known, He’s probably given me
the same answer two thousand years ago, and two thousand times since I was
born, but I haven’t seen, heard, or understood.
One of the things I’m struggling with at
the moment can be described a couple of ways. One way is to say that I’m
struggling with spiritual adulting. When babies are unhappy and cry, someone
does something to fix the situation. As we become adults, we’re supposed to
learn to take responsibility for fixing our own problems. But when I have a
problem that I take to God, I want Him to comfort me, burp me, change my
diaper, and give me a bottle – or maybe just entertain me. And I want it right
now, in real-time. Like Habakkuk, I want God to make His fame and His deeds
known in my time, and in wrath remember mercy (because I don’t want anyone to
be harmed, I just want the special effects.)
What I don’t want is to spend four hours
looking through Bible verses I’ve already read God knows how many times – or at
least my eyes have transmitted the images, or my ears have transmitted the
sounds to my brain – whether or not my brain actually did anything with them.
What I don’t want is to take responsibility (unless I want to,) or blame, but I
do want credit. God is too wise, and too smart for that.
At the same time, how could anyone not
want to see God being God? The key, I suspect, is our motivation. If we echo
Habakkuk for our own entertainment, there’s no reason for God to oblige. In fact, it might be an occasion for Him to remember mercy If we
echo Habakkuk for God’s glory, that’s another matter.
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